Mumbai, January 8: The biography of filmmaker and producer of Bollywood Karan Johar titled 'The Unsuitable Boy' shows that, despite of, all the fame and success, he is just as human and emotional as any of us.
Karan Johar's biography is penned by himself and Poonam Saxena. KJo has for the first time opened up about his sexuality in this book. An excerpt from the book was published in the Times of India.
It talks about how the conjecture of him being gay makes him the butt of jokes and even though people know about it, he is repeatedly asked questions about it. "If I need to spell it out, I won't only because I live in a country where I could possibly be jailed for saying this. Which is why I Karan Johar will not say the three words that possibly everybody knows about me," Johar says.
"I've given hints. I've stood on a platform like AIB Roast, and I had half of the people supporting me and the other half dissing me for doing this. But at the end of the day, I did what I did, and I did it with my mother in the front row, and screw you if you have a problem with that," he wrote.
He has revealed that his first sexual encounter happened when he was 26 and in New York after the shooting of two blockbuster flicks Dilwale Dulhaniya Le Jayenge and Kuch Kuch Hota Hai. Karan mentioned that he had always brushed the topic under the carpet.
"The thought of sex made me awkward; it almost rattled me. I thought, am I asexual? Why am I not feeling this? Why am I not doing anything? There was a lot of turbulence in my head. For me to address it, talk about it, discuss it, was a big no-no."
He was dealing with weight issues and felt undesirable physically. KJo started grooming himself after the two movies. He has written about the trauma he went through when his name was linked to Shah Rukh Khan, whom he considered as a fatherly figure or an elder brother.
"I was on a show on a Hindi channel, and I was asked about Shah Rukh. 'Yeh anokha rishta hai aap ka,' the interviewer said. He worded it in such a way that I got really angry. I said, 'If I asked you if you are sleeping with your brother, how will you feel?' So he said, 'What do you mean? How can you ask me this question?' I said, 'How could you ask me this question?" he wrote.
"For me, no matter what ups and downs Shah Rukh and I have been through, he is a father figure, an older brother to me. For me to look at him in that way or be subjected to those rumours was just ridiculous. But it didn't bother him. He said, 'People talk nonsense, and if a man does not have an extramarital affair, he is supposed to be gay'," he added.
Karan Johar says, "To me, sex is a very, very personal and a very intimate feeling. It's not something that I can do casually, with just about anyone. I have to invest in it. I refuse to talk about it...I have not been brought up to talk about my sex life."
"I have become like the poster boy of homosexuality in this country. But honestly, I have no problem with people saying what they want about me," he adds. He also narrated the Twitter plight stating he gets hundreds of hateful message every day saying he is polluting the society and should leave the country.